The way I live my life is driving me crazy and needs to change. There are days I am perfectly fine the way I do things and I convince myself that it is all good because I have so much to be thankful for. And I do. But, the disorganization, the horrible foods I eat (and feed my kids), the mess everywhere is making me lose my mind these days.
So, I am going to do something about it. I have to. I need to try and do better for my family. I am going to beat the depression that has been pushing me down and pull myself further out of it One Day at a Time (a song my Grandma and I would sing and some words to live by).
This blog is going to be hard for me. I have not decided how raw I am willing to go online. I need to pray about that some more. But for now, I am going to share what I am ready to share and post privately what I am not quite willing to let go of.
Today, June 9, 2012, I am proud of myself for some accomplishments in the last month. I started working out 3 days a week with a trainer. I had to commit to being a morning person since I don’t want to take my kids with me (or rather can’t). I go workout at 4:55 AM. Yes, you read that correctly! I, Robin Osendorf-Welch, am trying to change myself into a morning person. I honestly have not minded the mornings. Not sure if it is because I have a quick and short walk to my destination for working out or what. Maybe it is just the way it is. Some mornings I get up and go running with my neighbor friends (family) Jodi and Amanda. You can read about Jodi’s journey (with some mixed in bits about me and Amanda) on the blog located at www.touchingyourheart.net. I love my morning walk/runs with them. Primary reason, it is beautiful out. Secondly, they are a joy to be around. And finally, my girls are still in bed. As much as I love my children. Working out with them around is a bit much for me.
So, there is one change I am making to make The Way I Live better. Onto another BIG change for me. I stopped drinking Coke and am drinking primarily water. Anyone who has spent any amount of time around me knows I was a huge Coke drinker. Like more than 6 cans a day Coke drinker. It was getting to the point where Emma was starting to want to drink it too often so I knew I had to stop. Plus the empty calories and stained teeth, the expense, the cans everywhere…
When I first stopped the soda, I was drinking some juices and other things to get me by but I am really not interested in them anymore. It just feels awesome to be putting something in my mouth that I know is good for me no matter what. Thought I would save money on the soda thing, but… now I am putting those dollars into toilet paper. Mylanta… do I pee a lot and I am happy to report is is almost crystal clear. Yep, a pee report on my blog.
Now, I have many people wanting me to get Zumba going in town. And that is going to happen. I promise. Thing is, I had to make a few changes in my own life before I could start making commitments to other people. I have to schedule the times and nail down a couple of hour long routines before I am ready to stand in front of all the world and be the leader. I am here to tell you… it is so damn fun. I absolutely love doing it. And I am happy to report I was able to do the entire training which began at 8:30 and ran to 5:00 PM at my current size and fitness level. Actually, I was less strong then and less in shape. I generally joke about weighing in at 120 pounds, but in reality… that is off about 100 pounds. Yep, I said that aloud too. Can’t believe I did, but I did.
So… this is getting long. I am going to shut things down and come back tomorrow or later tonight for the next post. For those of you who are reading this wondering where are the photos of the cute children… they will come. They will be scattered between the posts about ME. Posts about ME and the changes I am making in The Way I Live.
My Grandma Muschka and I used to sing a song together (as I mentioned a moment ago)… I have posted about it on my blog before. Anyway… One part I love is this….
Help me believe in what I could be, and all that I am.
Show me the stairway I have to climb.
Lord, for my sake, teach me to take
One Day at a Time.
Just for Today: I am drinking the water and tomorrow is a workout day. Might have to take the girls for a run tonight.